Tuesday, October 23, 2007

I don't wanna grow up....

I have grown up...grown up alot.I am 18,reached my adulthood,I am free,careless,happy,a feel of maturity...momentarily seems to envelope me and then again vanish off suddenly without even making me realize..the flicker of a candle...I don't seem to realize why do people grow up...grow up and fall inlove...and then one day when love turns into a huge,ugly monster...creeps into your life,crawls into your heart and breaks them to pieces,stumping over them and laughs at you saying..'you are a fool'...do you laugh at yourself too?no,you don't..atleast i don't...every now and then when i open my eyes,I know my pillows are wet...
do u call this immaturity?is this being childish?fool?selfish?I don't know ...I don't care...I am carefree...as always..don't want to feel the pain ever again...don't want to fall in love...it HURTS...I DON'T WANNA GROW UP....

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

its puja time....!!

ahem ahem...its pujas out here...n kolkata is rocking as always...streets filled with lights,decorations,pandals...n ofcoz people..!
panchami...my pujo begun 2day...went out with college friends..24 of us..!!!had fun...adda...food...masti...but something was definitely missing...don't know what...but yes a feeling..that i couldn't ignore even for a momment..
tomorrow...shoshti...aditi,souvik,mitali,andy and rajdeep comin over to my place for lunch.evening...is scheduled 2 be spent at maddox
shaptami...there are no plans as such..as we have our dance as well as our singing programme in the evening
ashtami...i plan to be with my school friends....i know i am going to miss him alot this day..last year he was in a sherwani for the first time...looking damn cute...this year he is LOST..far far away from me..memories still lingers..but yet i have to let it go..y do i keep holding on to things which is never gonna come back??
neways its pujo afterall...and i can't let myself be sad anymore...
navami..ill spend with my friends...and dashami ill be here in my complex..will be going for bhashan..and then spending the evening here at home..
i hope...i stay happy during the pujos..and keep others happy..don't want to let the smile fade off from my lips..i know its not going to be the same without you...it can't be the same...but i promise to be happy...i know that is what you want..

Friday, October 12, 2007

GIRL LANGUAGE.....

If I dont call you...[ its because im waiting for you to call me ]

When I walk away from you mad...[ follow me ]

When I stare at your mouth...[ kiss me ]

When I push you or hit you...[ grab me and dont let go ]

When I start cussing at you...[ kiss me and tell me you love me ]

When I'm quiet...[ ask me whats wrong ]

When I ignore you...[ give me your attention ]

When I pull away...[ pull me back ]

When you see me at my worst...[ tell me im beautiful ]

When you see me start crying...[ hold me and tell me everything will be alright ]

When you see me walking...[ sneak up and hug my waist from behind ]

When I'm scared...[ protect me ]

When I lay my head on your shoulder...[ tilt my head up and kiss me ]

When I grab at your hands...[ hold mine and play with my fingers ]

When I tease you...[ tease me back and make me laugh ]

When I don't answer for a long time...[ reassure me that everything is okay ]

When I look at you with doubt...[ back yourself up ]

When I say that I love you...[ believe me ]

When I bump into you...[ bump into me back and make me laugh]

When I tell you a secret...[ keep it safe and untold]

When I look at you in your eyes...[ dont look away until i do]

When I miss you...[ im hurting inside ]


When you break my heart...[ the pain never really goes away ]


When I say it's over...[ i still want you to be mine ]

Tagged...

If I were a beginning, I would be:the beginning of love
If I were a month, I would be:july
If I were a day of the week,I would be:sunday
If I were a time of day,I would be:early morning
If I were a planet,I would be:pluto
If I were a season,I would be:monsoon
If I were a sea animal,I would be:satarfish
If I were a direction,I would be:south end
If I were a piece of furniture,I would be:bed
If I were a sin,I would be:lust
If I were a liquid,I would be:water
If I were a fraud/scare,I would be:virus
If I were a gem,I would be:ruby
If I were a tree,I would be:casuarina
If i were a tool,I would be:hammer
If I were a flower/plant,I would be:daffodil
If I were a sound, I would be : chirping of the bird
If I were an element, I would be: oxygen
If I were a car, I would be:911 turbo
If I were a song, I would be:white flag-dido
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: stormy
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: piano
If I were an animal, I would be: lion
If I were an emotion, I would be: blush
If I were a vegetable, I would be: tomato
If I were a food, I would be: putchka
If I were a place, I would be: summit of a mountain
If I were a material, I would be: silk
If I were a taste, I would be: sweet n sour
If I were a scent, I would be: the smell of the wet mud
If I were a religion, I would be: humanitarian
If I were a sentence, I would be: full of paradoxes
If I were a body part, I would be: eyes
If I were a facial expression, I would be: smile
If I were a subject in college, I would be: poem
If I were a shape, I would be: diamond
If I were a quantity, I would be: minute
If I were a color, I would be: blue
If I were a thing, I would be: lipgloss
If I were a landmass, I would be: an island
If I were a book, I would be: love story
If I were a monument, I would be: statue of liberty
If I were an artist, I would be: myself
If I were a poem, I would be: unrhymed..
If I were a watch, I would be: fast-track sports watch
If I were God, I would be: god of love..
If I were a vowel, I would be: a
If I were a consonant, I would be: z
If I were a formula, I would be: secret..and not to be revealed
If I were a Science, I would be: numerology
If I were a theory, I would be: applied everywhere..
If I were a famous person, I would be: satyajit ray
If I were a movie, I would be: pretty woman
If I were a cartoon, I would be: daffy duck!
If I were a scientist, I would be: lavoiser...he discovered oxygen
If I were a relation, I would be: bonded forver..neverending
If I were a river, I would be: nile
If I were intoxication, I would be: cocaine
If I were alone, I would be: writing poem..
If I were a question, then I would be: why?
If I were a hobby, I would be: painting
If I were a habit, I would be: literary
If I were in an atom, I would be: nucleus
If I were an end, I would be: end of a love story..happy one..:)

If I were you, I would be:lucky!