we hope to fall in love...bt sometimes it simply dosen't happen

Truth or dare
to love by the books, folk-lores and myths.

Winter warmth,
like hesitation slides over slippery snow surface.

Railway tracks
converge into snake curls in distant horizons.

Traffic lights,
still blinking as eternal love crashes into mortality.

Stars swallow
little dews as wheels vaporize night to brightness.

An eye-opener,
the morning sun, at times luminous, other times ambiguous

y is it dat ppl take advantage of me everytime...???

i dint study 2day n dun feel like as well...n even bunked tution....wateva ...n i even went to the extent of sayin sorry to a prsn when i actually din feel like...or wateva...maybe i shud have been sorry

i guess i should do a bit of studies....lets c....dun feel like although...afterall new year is jus 2days away...!!!

bored of me...

I’m bored of me. I’m bored of the same face that stares back at me from my bathroom mirror. I’m bored of my clothes, of the jewelry I wear. I want a make over. Where everything about me will be differentDifferent clothes. Thinner. No fab India. No silver earrings. No vodka n lime cordial. No cheap motorola cellphone. No buses. No metros. No same old curly hair that has looked the same since I was sixteen. No gurjari jhola. No chappals. no reporting stuff that I’m bad at. No wondering about why the bloody hell that guy didn’t call me. No keeping quiet when some one’s mean to me. No more sappy romance novels. No inarticulate speaking. No more whining. No more wallowing.
No more of me.
I want to go out shopping for a brand new me

blah...

life is a big fat beech.
and so is the world.
but.
some things are sweet.
Its just a phase, maybe it’ll pass
But just as long as it lasts…I’ll smile,
wont you too?
Even half a smile will do
(:

she....

...eyes wide open always hoping for the sun
and she'll sing her song to anyone
that comes along
a little girl
with nothing wrong
and she's all alone..

I don't wanna grow up....

I have grown up...grown up alot.I am 18,reached my adulthood,I am free,careless,happy,a feel of maturity...momentarily seems to envelope me and then again vanish off suddenly without even making me realize..the flicker of a candle...I don't seem to realize why do people grow up...grow up and fall inlove...and then one day when love turns into a huge,ugly monster...creeps into your life,crawls into your heart and breaks them to pieces,stumping over them and laughs at you saying..'you are a fool'...do you laugh at yourself too?no,you don't..atleast i don't...every now and then when i open my eyes,I know my pillows are wet...
do u call this immaturity?is this being childish?fool?selfish?I don't know ...I don't care...I am carefree...as always..don't want to feel the pain ever again...don't want to fall in love...it HURTS...I DON'T WANNA GROW UP....

its puja time....!!

ahem ahem...its pujas out here...n kolkata is rocking as always...streets filled with lights,decorations,pandals...n ofcoz people..!
panchami...my pujo begun 2day...went out with college friends..24 of us..!!!had fun...adda...food...masti...but something was definitely missing...don't know what...but yes a feeling..that i couldn't ignore even for a momment..
tomorrow...shoshti...aditi,souvik,mitali,andy and rajdeep comin over to my place for lunch.evening...is scheduled 2 be spent at maddox
shaptami...there are no plans as such..as we have our dance as well as our singing programme in the evening
ashtami...i plan to be with my school friends....i know i am going to miss him alot this day..last year he was in a sherwani for the first time...looking damn cute...this year he is LOST..far far away from me..memories still lingers..but yet i have to let it go..y do i keep holding on to things which is never gonna come back??
neways its pujo afterall...and i can't let myself be sad anymore...
navami..ill spend with my friends...and dashami ill be here in my complex..will be going for bhashan..and then spending the evening here at home..
i hope...i stay happy during the pujos..and keep others happy..don't want to let the smile fade off from my lips..i know its not going to be the same without you...it can't be the same...but i promise to be happy...i know that is what you want..